Turn Towards Home
Oh, Lord. I think I have been spending too much time in my head again, and not enough with my heart and body. Yikes. It is a scary place in there. I have been advised not to go in there alone. And what are the indicators that I have waved a big goodbye to my body? Here are a few.
1. When I went hiking last week, I began walking up a very steep incline. I thought I heard a bear in the shrubs. Then I thought I saw the ears of a wolf on the path a few feet down from me, then I thought I was going to get struck by lightening.
2. When a workshop I am about to lead is going to be cancelled because of low registration, I take it personally.
3. Then, I want to give up.
4. I eat frozen pizza and M & M and Butterfinger flurries from the Drive-In.
5. I surf Facebook and see how many friends I have and I check the statistics page on my blog to see how many people are reading.
6. I am definitely not out in my studio, with my dancing feet.
7. I start expecting WAY too much out of those around me.
8. And I am left feeling very insecure because of it.
These are just the tip of the iceberg. And you know what I am grateful for today? I am grateful that I can tell when I am in a strange place. I know when I have strayed very far from home. And all it takes, is just to turn towards home. Click my ruby slippers and turn towards home. With just a click, just a breath, just a floor stomping good dance, or a reminder from a good friend, I am home.
Do you have ANY idea how good I feel reading someone who I admire so much has the same thoughts as me? Thank you for your naked honesty.
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